Well, the first week of the big college life is finished. And luckily for me, I still want to go to class, to do homework, and to take notes!
Yesss! I'm proud of myself.
Being away from home is supposed to be hard right? And yet I find myself content with life at the moment. Not that I don't miss home. I miss my family, my friends, my dear baby car, and of course the fact that I don't have to plan, or think of my meals all day everyday! Maybe it was time for me to go? Maybe this is where i'm supposed to be at this time, right now in my life. But moving away and starting my life out as a "grown up" is scary, and yet I almost crave it more. I want school to be over, I want my degree, I wanna have my dream job, I wanna get married, have kids, and live in my own house, with my own cars, with my own worries, and bills, and trials. I want to live the happy life, with my eternal companion.. Like my sister. Having a place that she gets to go home to not the biggest house but the perfect house everyday, to a man who loves her unconditionaly, having the CUTEST CHILD IN THE WORLD, with a job that supports her family, and kids who love her, to me, she has it all.
Although the hard things in life don't sound that great, I just want to start my life. I feel like I'm wasting my time sitting in school. Yes everyone I know, school is the key to all the things I wanted above that's why I'm here.
Sitting in class I realized how much it still felt like I was in high school. Couple days in and wondering when the heck I was getting out, why I was there and how much longer am I going to have to wait.
With my weekend being yesterday made me realize now that I'm 19.. I'll be 20 next year... 21 after that, and the years just keep rolling!
AH! When did I grow up. I'm in college people. COLLEGE! I'm an adult... I have to account for myself now. No one to guide me to make the right decisions, or do the right things. It's all me.. And as nerve racking as that is, I'm okay with it. I think I'm ready. I wanna be an adult.. I want to be my own person. But this is the time in life that I want to skip. When your at home you have your parents, siblings and friends to love you and keep you company. Now, I'm stuck in a place where they constantly talk about marriage, and date, date, date! It just confuses me. Because I want to get married and start my life, but I'm stuck here. I guess Heavenly Father will throw my future husband into my life soon... I hope. Because I've never been a girl to want to be alone. And thanks to "BYU-I-DO" just making me want it even more.
I know dad, don't worry! You raised a smart girl... I'm not getting married!! It's just overwhelming with them forcing the idea into your head day after day.
But on a more playful note! My birthday! Yay Whitney. 19.
Was a wonderful weekend, thanks to my roommates, Blaine ! We had a blast. Saturday was the big day, we started out at Wendy's, for lunch, came back to my apartment hung out, Blaine met all the girls! Took a much needed nap, for me and Blaine. considering they got in at 2:30am the previous morning. We went on a date to Applebees, Me and Blaine and Courtney. And after we continued and went bowling. YES I WENT BOWLING. For the first time in months, I went and threw it down at Teton Lanes, in the big Rex. & It was an interesting night, I ended up bowling horribly.. and no dad it wasn't 160! I would have jumped for joy if I got 160 or better! But nope, Whitney rocked it at 130.. yupp, the start athelete, bowling scholarship girl bowled a 130! I blame it on, 3 things. 1) Not having a spare ball. 2) It was cosmic bowling so the lights were off so I couldn't see. and 3) We had retards bowling next to us who thought they would walk in front of you when you were bowling, or dance on your lane! FRUSTRATING!!! Ya I understand about having fun! Believe me bowling was funn for me once, but seriously? RESPECT THE LANES!
But we came back and opened up presents (thank you mom & dad).
My rooommates did an awesome job of decorating the apartment for me.
Even though Blaine ruined the suprise & my roommates took it upon themselves without knowing, to decorate.
Overall the weekend was a success. Thank you everyone :D